Today was Raul's shoulder surgery. We got up early, got ready, and made it to the surgery center at 6am. At 6:30am he was called back to be prepped for surgery. I fed Joshua some breakfast and we played with his toys. He is the ultimate trooper. He always comes through when we need him to the most. So many people came forward to watch him, but I needed him there with me. He was my stability while Daddy was in surgery. I held him, kissed him, and just all around played with him. His greatest accomplishment was scaling two flights of stairs with me right behind him as he thought this was the greatest thing in the world. He also loved the automatic doors....there was so much joy on his face when he thought he was opening the doors all by himself, when in actuality they didn't even register him until I came up behind him.
Today has by far been the hardest day for me. I've been keeping a very brave face on, when I am actual just being torn in two. My pillar, my strong link, my soul mate is in pain, both physically and emotionally. It's hard to watch Joshua cling to his legs or try to wrap his arms around Daddy's neck and repeatedly say "Dada" and watch as Daddy isn't able to pick him up. We will get through this. It will be a few weeks before any major progress is made. For now we will try to make the best of where we are at and I will do my best to make the way as easy as possible for both Daddy and Baby as they have to adjust to this new life.
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